The idea of having someone that you thought would be in your life, and then no longer wanting to be part of your life is devastating. It hits even harder when it’s a friend that ghosts you.

A perk of being single is never having to break up or be broken up with. Starting any romantic relationship comes with that risk. But the pain of losing a friend hits harder than anything.

Falling in love is hard, but loving someone can be easy. This is why I feel that a friendship loss is worse than a romantic loss.

It sucks losing someone that you love. Especially when it comes out of nowhere.
I’ve been broken up with and been the one to break it up romantically, but those times were nothing compared to when my friends broke up with me.

All I could think about was how distant we had been from each other leading up to
that day. The signs were there but I couldn’t see them. Or maybe I just didn’t want to see them.

I could have been a better friend, but ultimately I wasn’t. I know I wasn’t perfect. For two people not wanting to be a part of my life, I had to be doing something wrong.

The worst part wasn’t losing people to depend on, or no longer hanging out with
those people. The worst part was how it happened.

Being ghosted left me with no actual closure or explanation. That’s what hurts the most. The fact that my friends will never know the effect they had on me, may never
know or care to know.

I haven’t seen them since that day and I don’t know if I want to.

There was a time after the break-up when we almost saw each other, and I panicked.
I probably should have known I would see them again randomly, but I didn’t.

This is a heartbreak that can only come from the love I had for these people. Weirdly enough I do still have love for them, but I don’t want to be friends again.

It doesn’t matter how they feel about me or the situation, it can’t change the way I feel.

When we were friends they treated me well even better than a current friend could
have, so our initial bond was unforgettable.

But at the same time, if it was that easy for them to forget about me, maybe they don’t deserve me as a friend.

I am at the stage where I’m choosing not to talk about it as much. It’s not fair for my current friends to still hear about this, which is why it’s easier for me to say I’m over them so the conversion can be changed.

Writing this is my way of letting go. I hope it will be the last time I have to think
about them.

The breakup did make me realize not to take my current friends for granted. I haven’t been the best at this, but I’m trying. My mental health sometimes gets in
the way.

I understand that friendships aren’t forever and sometimes things happen for the better, even if it may never seem that way.

For those who’ve had a friend break up or are in the middle of one, I hope closure has been offered to help make the days forward easier.

I know I will get through this and come out on the other side ok, but that will only
happen if I am honest with myself.

There needs to be a market for friend breakups to help people feel like they’re not
alone. It happens in some media, but it is usually played for laughs.

More friend breakup songs would also be nice, unfortunately, the most famous ones
come from Taylor Swift, who my ex-friends are in love with. So yeah, not listening to those anytime soon.